My heart is beating a million beats per minute as I type this. I have been set up! My friends and family have all set me up! I can't believe it. I don't know whether I should be angry or grateful. I just know that they set me up.

I decided to take a walk this morning. I figured that the crisp fall morning air would do me some good. My mom upset me last night over dinner so I wanted to clear my head. When I got home I noticed that the Andersons are preparing to move out of their house. I saw Mr. Anderson loading some boxes into a van.

I didn't think anything of it. I spent the morning with Aunt Lu. We ran some errands and then had a quick lunch in town. When we got home I saw Mrs. Anderson and stopped to say hello to her. I could tell she was thinking I look too thin but she didn't say anything. So I was standing there talking to her for only a few seconds when it happened - Josh walked out of the house!

I didn't have time to be surprised or worried to see him. I didn't even question why he was there. I was just so overcome with emotion when I saw him. It was like my ability to think just disappeared. I just ran to him, practically flung myself into his arms and said, “Oh, Thank God!” I just kept thinking that all of my prayers to see him again were being answered. I forgot that he probably hates me. He seemed to forget that too because – although he seemed to resist for a second – I felt him soften and wrap his arms around me too.

I realize now why everyone insisted that I come home this weekend. They knew Josh would be here too and they wanted a reunion. I know everyone is trying to help me. They want Josh to know, but I have to keep him in the dark. I have to do this one unselfish thing for him so that he can live the life he deserves. That’s why when he pulled away and asked me if I was okay, I lied and told him that I was fine. I'm not sure if he believed me but he didn't press. In fact, the softness that was there when we hugged seemed to disappear and he became guarded again. Oh, but those few seconds that I was in his arms where the best seconds I've had in over a month, and that's all I have to hold on to right now.