Matt and I got voted out of the competition last week. It sucks because I was really counting on dancing all summer. I'm doing a rumba/cha cha mix with JD this week and then Natalie and I are flying out to Las Vegas for a few days. Well, I hope so anyway. Nat hasn't fully agreed to this, but I'm hoping so. I really want to get away for a few days. I could really use a change of scenery and a place that isn't full of memories of me and Josh.

I'm still missing him. I wonder when - if ever - I'll stop. I mean, I have to move on eventually, don't I? How sad would it be if I spent my whole life pining for him? I keep reminding myself that people loose love all the time and get over it. I will just have to get over it too.