We made it on to the next week of competition. Matt and I are doing a swing this week. I decided to stick with the number I choreographed to "What Was I Thinking?" I'm a little nervous about it, because Matt wasn't picking up the swing steps real easily last night. We'll see how things go.

I spent the Fourth of July with my friends. Molly, Lauren, Alex, Lindsay, Jennifer, Henry and I went to the fireworks in town. We had a fun time, but I found myself missing Josh miserably. It's so frustrating because I felt like I was getting myself together again, and then something about the 4th of July just set me back to missing him like crazy. Aunt Lu plays this old song and it goes, "I get along without you very well except in spring..." and it goes on about how little things make the singer miss the absent lover. I feel like the singer. I'll be getting along very well and then something happens and I'm missing him all over again.

Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get over him. When you've had a relationship with a real life Prince Charming, how do you ever find someone new? I just can't imagine loving anyone else the way I love Josh.

Alright, time to stop this. It's not helping. I need to focus on dancing, classes and the studio. There is no use in sulking over something I can't change. It's a waste of energy and a waste of time.