I got home last night to find a small party going on. Molly, Tim, Natalie, Jason, Amanda and a few friends from school were all hanging out...including Bill which kind of annoyed me. Well, the whole thing annoyed me because I was expecting Josh and I wanted to talk to him not party with a bunch of people.

He arrived around 8:00 and looked pretty surprised to see all the people in the house. Dancing With The Stars was blaring on the TV. The girls were trying to watch it, the guys were making fun of it and I was just plain annoyed. Josh sat down and started to talk to Jason. Bill was checking out Josh, obviously aware of who he is and then went over and started talking to him. I could tell it wasn't going well. Josh looked kind of annoyed and I heard him say, "that's funny...I haven't heard of you at all." Then he shot me a look. I knew Bill was goading him but I have no idea what he was saying. He's been such a little sour puss since I turned down his proposal for a date. He had a window of time where I would have said "yes" but he blew it by acting like a jerk. I don't like being blown off. I don't need it or want it and I'm over it. He's too late.

Bill didn't stick around much longer after that and he didn't show up for our lab today. Lucky for me it was a quick lab and we got out early. I was glad he wasn't there.

But anyway, back to last night...after Bill left I was still annoyed. Josh was talking to Jason and things were not going as I had hoped. I went down to my room, turned on DWTS and went online to see what people were saying about the show. Jenna (from the dance studio) IM'ed me and asked if I want to go out with her and some of the dancers Wednesday night. We were IM'ing back and forth when Josh came down.

He asked me what was up with Bill. I said, "he's just bitter because I turned him down for a date." Josh just said, "Ah..." Then he sat down and we made small talk for a few minutes. He couldn't stick around because he had another meeting in New York today but he asked if I'd stop by Angelo's tonight to hear him play piano. I told him I'd be there and then I walked him out to his car. He gave me a hug and said he was sorry we didn't get to talk. He said, "I'll buy you dessert tomorrow if you stick around after my set." I told him I would and said, "It's a date." I blushed when I realized what I'd said but he just smiled and said, "A date it is." So...I guess it's a date.

Ugh. We're broken up and we're dating. How confusing is that? I'm confused. I kind of feel like he's tricking me into getting back together with him...not that I'm resisting, but I have made it clear that I don't want to do the long distance relationship thing...and yet I keep going on dates with him! It's just that he will look at me a certain way or say my name the way only he says it and all of my will power is out the door. He even gets to me in text messages or emails. Everything thing he says is so perfectly worded. Everything he does is like perfection in my eyes. I'm completely under his spell.