Lauren called me this weekend. She wants to bury the hatchet so to speak. I told her I'm over it. I don't want to lose her as a friend and it's been a few months now. But I did tell her that she better not ever pull another stunt like that. She agreed. She invited me up to Connecticut for her birthday party this weekend. I'm going to go.

I asked if Josh would be there - just trying to prepare myself. She said he's in LA this week and she's not sure if he'll be home in time. Part of me wants to get it over with and see him, and part of me hopes he doesn't show up.

Things with Mark are not going well. I don't understand it. He just got so weird on me all of a sudden. I'm really not even sure what's going on between us at this point. It's very frustrating.