Made it through Easter without any Josh sightings. Maybe he wasn't home for the holiday, although I find it hard to believe that he hasn't come down from New York to see his parents. I'm torn about this because I don't really want to see him. I know that it will stir up all the old feelings, but at the same time I just want to get it over with because I know it's inevitable. There is no way that we won't cross paths and sitting around anticipating it is going to drive me nuts.

I finally told Mark that Josh is back. He asked how I feel about it, and I told him that it doesn't change anything between us. As I predicted, he got all weird on me. He started going on and on about first loves and how we never get over them. I just sat there staring at him during all of this because there was nothing I could say. Josh and I had something special. I'm not going to deny that, but the reality of the situation is that our relationship is over and I am dating Mark now.

Things with Mark have been weird ever since. He has it in his head that our time is limited and we're quickly approaching our expiration date. It's pretty hard to have a relationship with someone when that it their attitude. I'm not sure what to do. I don't want to walk away from Mark, but trying to prove myself to him constantly isn't going to work either. I'll go crazy. It's just not a good place to be.

On a brighter note, my final semester is coming to an end and it's been amazing. I have learned so much these past few months. I realize my posting hasn't been as frequent, but I've been busy. I'm learning how to run a business, doing school work and taking high level dance lessons in New York. It's been a whirlwind semester but I'm so glad it's worked out the way that it has. I feel more ready to take on the dance studio in a few months. It's so weird to think about...that I'll own my own dance studio! I guess if my personal life is going to be a mess, it's a good thing that my professional life is coming together in a way that makes me excited to get up in the morning. I am so lucky that I have the opportunity to make a living doing what I love to do.