Things have still be a little weird with Josh, he’s been holding back somehow, but last night we had a good time. I was hosting a dance lesson and party at the dance studio. Josh had a holiday party to go to for work so he came by the studio a little late.

I didn’t see him come in and was on the opposite side of the room when “Hungry Eyes” started to play. I glanced at the DJ because the song wasn’t on my list and saw Josh standing there. He gave me a smile and motioned for me to come to him. I gave him a look and he motioned again. I shook my head and smiled. He walked over to me and held out his hand and I teased him by looking away. He pretended to dance by himself and I just started laughing, and then joined him on the dance floor to Rhumba to the song. He kept trying to break frame and put his hands on my waist, and I kept scolding him and trying to get him back on track until I finally gave up and let him pull me in. He pulled me real close, flashed a smile at me and said, “hi.” He is so adorable. I couldn’t help but grin as I said “hi” back.

After the party ended, Josh stuck around to help me clean up, but we ended up dancing for another two hours! We flirted with each other as we danced to Usher’s “Yeah!” (still love that song), I sang to him while we danced a Rhumba to “Hello Stranger” (a song I once sang to him), and he sang to me while we slow danced to “I Only Have Eyes For You” (a song he once sang to me). It was flirty and fun and just what we needed. And when he kissed me, he really kissed me. He didn’t seem like he was holding back at all while we were on the dance floor.

But then we started to get tired. I really didn’t want him to leave, but he promised Aunt Lu that he’d put Christmas light up on her house this morning and so he wanted to get home to bed. He walked me up to my apartment and kissed me goodnight, and suddenly he was reserved again. I just don’t understand it. I want fun, flirty, doesn’t hold back Josh. I don’t understand why he is keeping me at arm’s length.