Aunt Lu says that time will help lessen the pain. So why am I still sad, two months later? Why am I still thinking about him? Why does my heart long for him all day and all night? I sat in my bio class this morning thinking about Josh instead of concentrating on the lecture. I just sat there wondering what he was doing, where he was, if he was with another girl, or if he was off somewhere feeling as lonely as I was. My mind didn't find it's way back to biology until the very end of class.

I'm looking forward to my trip to Hawaii. It will be good for me to get away. I think a change of scenery will do me good. I was watching the weather channel last night and was so jealous of the 80 degree whether there. I can't wait to walk along Waikiki and be far away from the cold, the snow, and freezing rain.

Things in the dorm are the same. Elise is keeping her crazy hours. I talked to her this afternoon and told her that I think she needs to start getting her body adjusted to our time zone. She said she'd try but I didn't get the feeling that she'd try very hard. Molly offered to switch rooms with me, which I thought was a major sacrifice for her - she's not that fond of Elise - but I don't feel right sticking Molly with her. I'll just continue to try to work it out. I want to give the girl a chance to get acclimated to our country. I know it must be hard on her and I don't want to contribute to her stress. I just wish I could get a normal night's sleep.