I had another dream about Josh last night. I hate dreaming about him because I wake up feeling like I was just with him and then it all the sorrow over losing him just comes crashing down on me. I just want to move on.

I bought Katharine McPhee's CD last week. There's a song called "Everywhere I Go." The song isn't exactly me and Josh but there are parts of it that are spot on. I just feel like no matter what I do I can't get him out of my system. I keep telling myself to get over him because it is over. I start to make progress and then I have one of these stupid dreams about him and it just sends me back to this place where I'm sad and heartbroken and completely lost.

To quote Katharine's other song, "wanting you to be wanting me, no that ain't no way to be." It's really not. I need to move on. I can't keep wishing he'd call, or write or come and tell me how much he loves me. It's just not going to happen. It is time for me to move on and get over it.