I just got an email from Kelly about her birthday party. It's the weekend after Spring Break. I saw Josh's email address on the list too. I'm not sure if I can do it. I don't know if I can go if he's going to be there. I'm so afraid that the little progress I've made towards getting over him will all be shattered the instant I see his face or hear his voice. Why is it so hard for me to get this guy out of my system? Why can't I shake him?