I was trying to save myself heartache and it didn't work. I'm miserable. Josh is gone and we're through and I wasted an entire summer living in limbo. I wish I were more wise or had a better idea of what I was doing instead of just going through the motions and hoping for the best.

I am about to become the owner of the dance studio. Plus I'm the owner of my dad's business. You'd think I'd have better judgment. I hope I can do this. I hope I don't screw up the dance studio. Yesterday Eva stopped by. She got licensed to teach Zumba and she wants to teach at the studio. My initial reaction was to say no - mostly because she had been flirting with Josh earlier this summer (stupid, I know...). Mona pulled me aside and explained that as the runner up in the dance competition, Eva had established a following and would probably attract a large client base. I agreed to let her do it, but I needed Mona to get me thinking like a business person and not a jealous ex-girlfriend.

I am going over to Raj and Anisha's house for dinner tonight. I'm hoping it will cheer me up a little bit. I can't keep sitting around thinking about Josh. I need to get my head on straight so that I can run my business. I'm not a kid anymore. I need to grow up and get my priorities straight.