Raj and I are in the finals! It's our last week and we have three dances. We're doing the Paso Doble to "Cowboy Casanova" the Samba to "Fuego" and our free style is to a Bollywood song called "Om Mangalam." Raj has off all next week so we've got lots of time to rehearse. I'm so excited. I can feel victory right within my grasp. I want this win and Raj does too so we're going to be working hard.

I'm trying not to get too distracted by Josh. It's hard because his mere presence is a distraction, but he understands that I want to win and he respects that.

We also found out that his job in LA has been moved up. We thought he would be here until September 7th but now he's leaving August 29th. I haven't had time to freak out. I think I've been keeping him at arms length all summer because I don't want to get too emotionally attached and then have to say good-bye again. It kills me inside when he leaves. I know he says he'll be back, but what does that mean? Will he be back in Pennsylvania or will he be in New York? I guess we need to talk. There's just not a lot of time. I sleep, eat, go to the swim club and rehearse. Then I do it all again.

I guess things will work out one way or the other. They always do.