Sorry it's been a few days. I was travelling on Sunday. I'm in Florida now. It's nice being down here. This is the weather I'm used to. I miss Pennsylvania though...I miss my campers, I miss Aunt Lu, I miss Josh...

Let's start with Friday night. I was a nervous wreck when I first got there because I had a hard time getting a hold of my mom. Aunt Lu was backstage with me when my mom called her cell phone. Mom told us that they weren't hit too hard by the hurricane - huge relief.

The play was a huge success. The kids were great!

After the play I went out for ice cream with a bunch of the swim club and camp staff - Josh included.

Saturday was the dinner cruise...it was amazing. It was rainy but it didn't ruin the fun. Josh and I sat at a table with Terry, Molly and some other people we know from the club. Dinner was great but dancing was even better. Josh held me so close during the slow songs. Being close to him is the most amazing feeling in the world. I felt so warm and safe in his arms.

When we got close to Manhattan, Josh grabbed the umbrella and gave me his suit jacket to keep me warm. He then ushered me outside so that I wouldn't miss seeing the Manhattan skyline. We went out on the top deck and stood under the umbrella together.

He pointed out where the WTC used to be, and showed me the area that his school was in. He pointed out the Empire State Building. We also went past the Statue of Liberty as the boat went around the bottom of the island. I must have been in awe because Josh kept looking at me and smiling.

We were talking about him going to school and then somehow the conversation changed to Jennifer...it was kind of weird. He asked me if I had backed away from him because of Jennifer! I don't know how he knew...except that maybe Molly shared her suspicions with him or Alex told him. I didn't want to cause problems with Jennifer so I tried to talk around it but he wasn't buying it. He definitely knows Jennifer told me to stay away from him.

I asked him why he thought that and he went on about when we went to the Phillies game for his sister's birthday. He said I seemed happy that night and then all of a sudden I was distant and there was sadness in my eyes. I was surprised that he saw that.

I told him that I didn't want to get in the way if there was something between him and Jennifer. He said there never was anything more than friendship between them, and if Jennifer said otherwise it was only wishful thinking. It was a relief to hear him say that.

We were standing out there looking at the city and talking for a while. At one point his face was like an inch from mine and I thought he was going to kiss me but then this big bolt of lightening flashed and there was thunder and Josh rushed me downstairs and back inside the boat before I even knew what happened.

We had dessert inside and danced some more. The storm made the boat a little shaky and Molly was getting sea sick so I sat with her for fifteen minutes because she didn't feel good enough to dance.

One the ride home from the dinner cruise Josh and I talked about my trip to Florida. He was asking me about Sarasota. We also talked about how he'd be away at school by the time I got back. It was a little sad.

When we got home he walked me to the door. We talked a little longer...I didn't want him to leave... Finally he stepped toward me and kissed me on the cheek - yep, only the cheek - but it was sweet.

I was exhausted Sunday morning, and I had to get up early for my flight to Florida. I sat on the plane and stared out the window the whole trip wishing that Josh wasn't going away.

When I got to Florida my mom and dad were there to pick me up. My dad was sober. Thank God! We went out to Lido Beach and had dinner at one of the hotels out there.

Yesterday Natalie and I spent the day at the beach. I filled her in on everything going on with me. She filled me in on life in Sarasota. It was kind of weird though...It's strange to hear about all my old friends, and not to be part of their lives anymore.

This morning I slept in and then sat out by the pool. I was staring at the water thinking about Josh when the phone rang - it was Molly! Her cat died and she was really upset. I felt bad because I'm too far away to really help her feel better.