I am so angry I’m shaking. My phone reunion with Josh was not what I expected. I can’t believe how angry I am! Apparently he spent the entire weekend with Kelly! And just a week after I told him how uncomfortable it makes me that he’s spending so much time with her! Here I was missing him all weekend and he was running around New York with his ex-girlfriend! He told me he’s just helping her get over Jason, and that he has no interest in her. I believe him, I do. I don’t think he’d try to hurt me, but when I first met him he was trying to get over her. She broke his heart. What if she’s decided now that she wants him back? She was the great love of his life…what’s to stop him from running back to her?

I completely freaked out on the phone. I have never been so upset with him. I just don’t get it. I know he’s trying to help a friend but shouldn’t my feelings be considered? I told him I didn’t like him spending so much time with her. I think she needs to call up one of her girlfriends to cry to – not my boyfriend! But really, he’s the one I’m angry with because he knows how I feel and yet he did something that he knew would upset me. I guess I should just be happy that he was honest with me about hanging out with her. Oh, I don’t know what I’m supposed to feel.

All I know is that I’m really angry and I just don’t want to talk to him right now. I’m just so hurt and I feel like he put her ahead of me. How can I be okay with that?