My plan is to tell Josh tonight about my college choice. I just want to get it over with so that it's not hanging over my head. I'm just scared. What if he's upset? What if he wants to break things off? What if he doesn't want a long distance relationship anymore?

I will be completely heartbroken if I lose him, but I can't follow him around. I have to live my own life. I mean, how will I feel if someday my daughter asks me why I chose the college I did and I say it was because of a boy? Now, if the boy ends up being her father, I guess it's no big deal. And believe me, I love Josh and believe deep in my heart that someday we could really be together. But right now we're so young and things are so uncertain. Should I really bet my whole future on him? Would he even want me to?

I don't even know how I'm going to tell him. I don't even know when the right time to tell him is...

He called last night and told me he has something special planned for us tonight. Do I tell him before, during, after? I wish I knew what we were doing so I could plan when to tell him.

Am I making too much out of this? I wish I knew...