I have senioritis so badly. Don't get me wrong...graduating will be bitter sweet. I can't wait for the freedom that comes with going away to school, but I will miss my friends here and Aunt Lu. I'm just tired of school work and I can't wait for a break. Plus this summer will be fabulous - I just know it.

I made up my mind about school. I'm going to the same school as Natalie and Molly. But that's not why I want to go there. It's in a small town but it's accessible to both home and New York pretty easily. I'll be midway between Josh and Aunt Lu. Now telling Josh that I won't be in New York will be the hard part. I don't know what to say. I'm so worried that he's going to be upset. I always thought I'd end up in New York for college but I just don't know...it scares me. It's so big, so busy, so crowded. I just don't think I'd like that day in and day out.

I'm just scared of losing him. What if he decides he wants a girl who lives in the same city? I know he loves me but what if he's tired of this long distance stuff? I keep praying that he'll be understanding about it.

Today is the two year anniversary of when we first hung out at the Philly's game. I can't believe it's been two years. We have so much history now...and such a strong bond. I don't want to see it fade away because I've decided against going to school in New York.