I got a call from Lindsay last night who informed me that my boyfriend took Laura to Vermont with him! I asked Lindsay how she knew about this and she said Jennifer wrote it in her blog. So I tried to find Jen's blog (Lindsay didn't want to give me the address, which I think is totally weird)and then I tried to get in touch with Jennifer but she didn't call me back. Finally I just called Josh and he admitted that he took Laura with him - like it was no big deal! We got into a huge fight over the phone. It was horrible. He said there were tons of people up there and that he invited Jen and Laura to go along and Jen couldn't go. He said that there was no reason for me to feel threatened by Laura - but I do. The girl wants him. She doesn't even try to hide it and I don't think it's a good idea for her to be going away for the weekend with him - even if it's a group thing.

I spent the whole night crying on Molly's shoulder, and then at rehearsal this morning I couldn't concentrate. Jordan asked me what was going on and I started crying. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I thought he was going to get mad at me, but he was actually really sweet. I told him what was going on and he helped me get it out of my system so we could get back to business. It was tough though. I'm just so torn apart right now. I feel like Josh is gone, like I've lost him and we're over.