Just had another fight with Josh. I just can't take this anymore. I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster ride. One minute things are great and I'm up. The next minute we're angry and hurt and I'm down. I just wish things could be normal again.

The thing is that he's not supportive of all of the time I'm putting into dancing. He doesn't like me spending so much time with Jordan, and he thinks my weekends should be dedicated to him. The fight today was over this weekend. He wants me to go up to Keith's aunt's cabin in Vermont. Well, that's like a 6 hour drive from here and I have to rehearse this weekend. I can't spend a total of 12 hours in the car + time there when I need to be dancing and doing school work. Not to mention I'm trying to learn the piano and it would be nice if I could fit that into the schedule as well! He's so unreasonable about it. He acts like I'm trying to ruin his life! I'm not trying to ruin his life - I'm just trying to fit as much as I can into mine, and right now, a trip to Vermont doesn't fit.

Okay, rant over. I have to run to rehearsal. Hopefully dancing will help me shake off some of the tension.