I found out today that I'm getting a new roommate this weekend. I hope she's normal!

I ran into Jason last night at the bookstore. I was sitting in the cafe drinking my tea when I felt someone standing over me. He asked if he could sit down. I was kind of nervous about it. I mean, he's Josh's best friend but he was nice enough. He asked how I was doing. He told me that he's been talking to Kelly again. They're not back together but he said it's good to talk to her.

We were just talking and then he looked at me and said, "so you're thinking about him." I kind of gave him a weird look and he said, "why don't you talk to him? It's obvious you want to." I don't know why it was obvious, Josh's name hadn't come up. We were talking about Kelly, but somehow Jason knew that Josh was on my mind.

I told him that Josh and I were over - Josh wanted a break, and I didn't feel like waiting around for him to make up his mind. Either you love someone or you don't. Jason just looked at me and said, "I don't think it was ever about love. The guy is in love with you, Nicole." I thought I was going to cry. Does Josh still love me? If he does, why are we apart?

I sucked it up and tried to regain my composure. I didn't want to burst into tears at Barnes and Noble and I certainly didn't want to cry in front of Josh's best friend! Jason looked at me and said something like, "Things will change. They always do. You and Josh will come around again, and when you do, you will have learned something." I shook my head and told him that it's obvious that what we've learned is that when things got tough we couldn't work things out.

I'm so confused now. There was something about the way Jason said, "The guy is in love with you, Nicole" that I can't get out of my head. He said it in the present tense: "The guy is in love with you..." So if Josh is in love with me, why doesn't he fight for me? Why doesn't he call and tell me that he can't live without me? If he is in love with me, does his heart break every day the way mine does? It just don't make sense!