I just got back from the keys yesterday. My mom and I had a nice time down there. It was good to get away and clear my mind for a few days. I'm back in Sarasota now. I'll be here until Wednesday and then I'll be headed back to Pennsylvania. I talked to Molly earlier and she told me that Josh is going down to Baltimore for a few days so I won't have to worry about running in to him. His classes start up a week before mine so I'll be able to relax in PA without wondering if I'll bump in to him by the mailbox. I know it's going to be hard being there but I know it will be much, much easier without him around.

It's still hard, you know? Today it's been exactly one month since the break up. It's gotten easier to live with the pain but it's still there. It's like I'm numb. I don't love him any less, I just have gotten used to the idea that he's not coming back to me. For awhile I thought the phone would ring, that he'd call and we'd talk and all would be right. I think I've finally accepted that he's not going to call. He doesn't want me back and I have to face that - it's the only way I'll be able to move on, right? I just keep on keeping on, and I hope that I'll find a way to get over him.