Wow, the past few days have been...unexpected and...hmm, not sure how to put it. "Interesting" doesn't really cut it.

My flight landed in Philadelphia yesterday afternoon. My mom came with me because she and my dad are now seperated. They decided to tell me this Tuesday night. I know my mom had been thinking about it but she never did anything about it so I was really shocked when they told me it was happening.

I'm thinking maybe the pending demise of my family is why my father didn't freak out about my car being totalled. In fact, he ordered me a new car...well, an SUV actually, because he thought it would be safer. I'm going to pick it up at the dealer tomorrow afternoon.

Anyway, I'm back in Pennsylvania. It was too weird for me at Aunt Lu's last night. I knew Josh was still around because his car was out front and I saw his bedroom light on. I stayed over at Uncle Bill and Aunt Linda's last night. I got to spend the night hanging out with Lindsay so it was good. Molly came over and the three of us talked. Actually, I did most of the talking...about my parents, about Josh, about Jeremy.

Oh, yes, Jeremy. He was my first crush...like when I was a little girl kind of crush, you know, the first boy I noticed in a "I like him more than as a friend" sort of way. I ran into him on Tuesday when I was picking up pizza at Frankie's in Osprey. We made small talk for a moment and then he was like "hey, didn't you move to Pennsylvania?" I told him I did but that I was at school in New Jersey. Well, it turns out that he goes to Temple! Small world. Anyway, he asked for my email address and suggested we hang out some time since we're not that far apart. I gave him my info and I got an email from him last night. He wants to meet up this weekend!

Lindsay and Molly were all over this. They think I should see him. I guess I'm just a little hesitant because I'm not sure what "hang out" means to him. I am so hung up on Josh that I can't possibly even consider the idea of dating. Molly thinks Jeremy could be a great rebound. She says that I need a rebound so that I can get on with my life. I'm not so sure about that. However, I do think it would be cool to actually get to know the guy that first peeked my interest in boys.

I'm back home now. Molly called Josh and he said he was on his way to Baltimore so I won't have to worry about seeing him until he gets back on Sunday. It's sad that it's come to this but I can't see him. I don't think I can handle it. I would probably freak out and start crying, or worse, fall at his feet and beg for him to take me back. Pathetic. I can't seriously be this pathetic.

One more interesting little tid bit - Jennifer and Terry are "hanging out" (Lindsay's words). I was kind of surprised but Jen deserves some happiness so I hope that things work out this time.

Well, that's all for now. I'm sure there will be more to come!