I wish I could pinpoint the moment when things between me and Josh began to unravel. Then I could figure it out somehow. I could go back and fix it so that we could just get back together and be happy.

I keep thinking about all those times that he took my hand or pulled me into his arms and everything felt right. No matter what was happening, it was going to be okay because I had him. I want that back. I know he wants that back. I'm just so stressed because I'm not sure what it's going to take to get there again.

I'm just feeling so sad...I want to be with him. I want to get back together, but things still feel off and strained. What if we get back together and screw things up so badly that we hate each other forever? I just don't know what to do. :(