Why is it that time moves so slowly when you're away from the one you love, and so quickly when he's here? I just wish I could have one day with him here. I know he'll be back in December. I know that this isn't the end of the world, but missing him eats me up. I thought that by now I'd be used to him being away but I just miss him more and more.

Spending the weekend with Lauren didn't help. Part of it is because she's his sister, but mostly it was because she would talk about Alex and look at Alex the way I used to look at and talk about Josh. She is really crazy about him, and it reminded me of the days before Josh and I got together. Of course, Alex is showing no signs of changing his mind about being with Lauren, but I can't help but cheer her on. I can't help it. I want love to prevail, and I know that Alex cares about her and wants to be with her. He just won't let himself. But maybe that will change.

Anyway, the weekend was fun. Alex's dorm was running a haunted house so we helped them with that. Alex took us on a campus tour and then yesterday we stopped at Lauren's grandparent's house for lunch. That also made me miss Josh. I kept looking around and remembering the night we spend there this summer. We stayed up late, sitting on the back porch and talking. We had had so much fun that night.

I talked to Josh earlier today. His mom left today and is on her way back to the States. He told me about their weekend in Paris. I'm jealous. I would give anything for a weekend in Paris with Josh. Actually, I would give anything for even a day with him. I just wish there were a little relief in sight. December 22nd seems so far away.