I am so lucky I've done well this semester because I'm afraid I've screwed up both of my finals so far. I have one more tomorrow and then I'm done. I have been really trying to focus and get my act together but I can't stop thinking about Josh. I wonder if Laura has moved in on him yet. I'm sure she's been sitting on the sidelines waiting to pounce for months now.

I have been holding it together pretty well this week. I got up yesterday morning and spent the entire morning at the library studying for my exam. I took the test and then it was on to studying for the second exam. Now that that one is over I am going to focus on the third until I'm finished tomorrow afternoon. Then I'll probably have a nervous breakdown.

I was planning to go back to Pennsylvania for a few days before I leave for Florida but now I'm planning to stay at school until campus closes on Friday. After that I'll meet Aunt Lu in PA and we'll fly down to Florida. I just can't spend a lot of time in PA right now. I don't want to run into Josh's family. I don't want to look out the window and see his house and his room. And I definitely don't want to accidentally run into him - even if the odds are against that happening. I just can't deal with it now.