I decided the blog needs a new look. You know how you break up with someone and you get a new hair cut? Well, I break up and I give the blog a new look. Hey, I had to do something and there is no way I was going to cut my hair. I refuse to end up looking like "Felicity" after her breakup with Ben.

Anyway, I got tired of waiting for my dad to call me back yesterday so I called my mom and found out that she's in Orlando for some dance competition and my dad is in Miami on business. So I can't go to Florida until Saturday when they are both home. Grrr... So instead of lounging in the Florida sun, I'm stuck here in the dorms in floggy New Jersey while I mope about losing the love of my life.

Amanda was up cramming all night so I sat on my bed downloading "breakup songs" from iTunes. I figure if I'm going to wallow I ought to do it right. Now I have a whole playlist of sad love songs to sit and listen to. There is even a whole website dedicated to breakup songs.

After I downloaded my songs I went back and read through all of my old blog posts which was pure agony. Reading about all of the sweet things Josh has done for me through the years just tore my heart up even more. And yet I couldn't stop reading. I just read and cried, remembering each and every precious moment. I know I should be trying to move on, but I can't. I hoped that going to Florida would help me do that, but since I'm stuck here for two more days I might as well continue to miss him.