I was having a horrible day at school. I didn't do so well on my math exam. The teacher is going to let me do some extra credit to up my grade because he knows how hard I've been working on it. Still...I feel like a failure.

All day I was walking around thinking about Josh and then I had Molly on my back, bugging me about the car. The car is still parked in the driveway and Molly wants to take it for a spin. I'm just not ready yet. I have to act annoyed and bitter about my father trying to buy me just a bit longer. Then maybe I'll feel more comfortable driving it.

Missing Josh was the hardest part of the day. I miss the anticipation of knowing I'll see him, or the hope that I'll bump into him. I miss his smile and his shiny eyes and the reassuring way he's always there for me.

So I got home and went to my room. I looked out the window at his old bedroom and burst into tears. I sank down on the bed and Aunt Lu had left a New York postcard on my pillow. I picked it up and saw that Josh had sent it. This is what he wrote:

Hey Nic,

Lauren told me the good news. I guess you'll be driving around town,
probably with Lauren begging you for a ride. I knew you could do it. Next time
I'm in town you owe me a ride! New York is great. It's so nice not worrying
about catching the train to Trenton or dealing with the commuters. Even though
the city is busy and hectic, I feel so much more relaxed. I hope you'll convince
"Aunt Lu" to let you visit some weekend. Call me or email me. Let me know what's
going on in the world of Nicole.

Josh

I know it's crazy but this little postcard completely made my day. He took the time to buy it, write and send it to me. It's so much more than a phone call or an email. It means he's thinking about me and he cares!