I'm so mad! How can he just leave? How can just go? Did our kiss mean nothing to him? It's like it never happened. It's like our friendship barely happened. I feel like we're so far apart right now.

I've been on the phone with Molly for the past 45 minutes. She's planning a get together Saturday night so that we can all hang out with Josh before he leaves. I don't want to go. How am I supposed to spend the evening with him and pretend to be happy that he's walking out of my life?

Molly thinks I should tell him how I feel. I just don't see that happening. What good would it do? It would just add humiliation to the bad feelings I'm dealing with right now. He obviously doesn't care. Our kiss obviously didn't leave much of a mark on him. If it did, he wouldn't be leaving. He wouldn't be able to consider the thought of being away from me!

It's so not fair. I have to forget him. Once and for all, I have to forget him.