I'm sorry it's been a few days. I've just been feeling down in the dumps since Josh left. Today is a little better though.

Saturday night was interesting. We did the karaoke thing but it was sad. I got up and sang the song "Don't Speak." Nancy made a comment to me in front of Josh that song choices tell a lot about the people that sing them. That girl is just so nasty.

I didn't really talk much to him that night. I just was so afraid I'd break down in tears so I latched onto Molly the whole night. I think she was getting a little frustrated with me. She wanted me to tell him how I feel but I can't. I'm just not going to throw myself at him. If he doesn't know how I feel after that kiss on Christmas Eve than I'm not about to go professing my undying love to him.

Sunday was hard. I stayed in bed half the day until Molly came over and dragged me out of bed for an aerobics class at the dance studio.

Yesterday was hard too. My mood was horrible. The rain and cold weather didn't help. I wanted to stay in bed but I had to go to school. It being Valentine's Day didn't help either.

Today's a little better. The weather is sunny and warm and I haven't cried yet today. I know it's silly but my heart is just broken. I want him and I miss him. I want to see him and talk to him. It's so not fair!!!

By the way, I made an appointment for my driver's test on Thursday. My mom is coming to town tomorrow for a long weekend so she is going to take me. I figured I might as well get my license now that Josh is gone. He won't be here for anymore lessons. :(