Last night I had my driving lesson with Josh but we ended up pulling over and going to Starbucks to talk. I told him I was surprised that he wasn't at home and he told me that he desperately needed to get out of the house. He's having a hard time seeing his mom so broken up.

We talked about his uncle and about New York. It sounds like he's getting more involved with the people in New York. I don't know. I just feel him pulling away and going in a different direction. I don't really know how to describe it but the hunch that I was having yesterday seems more real now than before. I just feel like I'm losing him and it's beyond my control.

I went to the library during lunch today to do my math homework. And to avoid Molly and Alex. I just couldn't bear to watch them make eyes at each other. I'm so thrilled for them, I really am, but I just couldn't deal with it today.

After school I was waiting in the choir room for Lindsay to give me a ride home. Tom, the new guy who's playing the guitar for us, came in and talked to me for awhile. He could tell something was wrong. I didn't really get into things with him but it was nice to have someone care. I can tell he's feeling a little like I was last year when I moved here. I should invite him to hang out with us more. He and Alex get along really well and I'm sure he could use from companionship.

Well that's all for now. I should get some sleep