Well, today was interesting. There's a talent show on Friday night, that I decided not to get involved with because I was asked to help choreograph the spring musical plus Molly and I are working on our junior project. Anyway, this girl, Debbie, asks me to fill in for her friend who has mono. Now let me state again that they show is on Friday - this Friday! I tried to say no but she was so persistant. She thinks I'm the only one who could possibly learn the choreography in that short amount of time. But there's more, because the girl I'm replacing was also the lead singer so now I have to learn a song that I don't know. It's an En Vogue song, which is kind of fitting because it's about figuring out where you stand with a guy that's just a friend. I know I can pull it off. Associating the dance steps with the lyrics help but still...two days. Oh, and I should add that Alex and Tom had a hand in pressuring me into this. They think it will be good for me. Blah!!!!!!

Saturday night is going to be a get together at a place in town that has karaoke. It's a restaurant and not just a bar so we can go there. Molly thought it would be fun since we're all so musical. She thinks it will be fun to make Josh sing "New York, New York." Another Blahhhhhhhhhh!!!! Why am I the only one who thinks this move to New York is a big mistake? Probably because I'm the selfish one in the group. I want him here!

He's supposed to be here to help me with my driving and to hang out with and just be there in case I need him. What am I supposed to do without him, now? I've started to rely on him so much. He's like my tower of strength.

And what about us? Was it all a dream? Did I just make it up in my head? Up until the day he found out his uncle was sick, things with us were looking so promising. I thought he was distracted by his family, but may he just changed his mind instead. IT'S SO NOT FAIR!