I'm in a crabby mood today. I got up early so that Josh and I could work on our Cha Cha (yes, Cha Cha - not the Waltz! I'll get to that later...). Well, Josh got called into work this morning because one of the lifeguards called out and they will be understaffed until 10:00. Very annoying. I really could have used some extra sleep. But now I'm up and wide awake.

So, the competition was good on Wednesday. We weren't #1 but we were at the top end of the leader board. The judges said they saw huge improvements and that our dance was very romantic and very believable! I was thrilled and so was Josh.

After the show, we found out that we are doing the Cha Cha next week. I was kind of pissed since I had already choreographed the Waltz. It turns out that they wanted to add the Mambo to the line-up and so we are doing the Cha Cha next week, and then the following week we are doing the Mambo and a group Waltz.

Yesterday I spent the day at work listening to "Dance With Me" (our Cha Cha song) over and over again to get a feel for it and work out some choreography. Josh and Henry were giving me grief for listening to it so much but I was so stressed. I like to think through the choreography and not just throw something together on the fly!

Last night was had our dance lesson. It was a lot of fun and I got to dance with Josh this time. Afterwards a bunch of people were heading over to Angelo's. I kind of didn't want to go because Tanya was dragging Josh out the door and holding his hand and I didn't want to put myself in the position to feel jealous. But I went anyway.

It was actually kind of fun. They had a jazz band playing so there were a lot of good Swing and Fox Trot songs to dance to. Tanya was hanging all over Josh so I danced with her dance partner, Damon. Later, I was getting a soda from the bar and Jennifer walked over and told me that I should "forget the stupid pact and reclaim my man." It was so funny the way she said it! I appreciate the sentiment, but Josh isn't my man and I can't go around "claiming" him.

Later I was slow dancing with JD but I couldn't keep my eyes off of Josh who was dancing with Tanya. It was like watching a car accident. You know you shouldn't look at it, but you can't stop. I just wanted to gage how close they were dancing, where his hands were, if he looked happy. Well, he caught me looking. Our eyes met and I looked away real quick. Then I realized that he looked kind of sad so I looked at him again and he gave me a sad smile (is that possible?). After that song, he pulled away from Tanya and walked over to me and asked me to dance. He pulled me close and I felt like the planets were realigning back to the way they're supposed to be. He held me close...much closer than the way he held Tanya. Maybe I'm reading too much into things. I don't know what's going on with him and Tanya and I can't ask because of the pact, but I do know that he looked much happier when he was dancing with me than when he was dancing with her.