Yesterday was great. Rehearsals went well. We went for an afternoon hike and then went swimming. It was last night that wasn’t so great.

Josh convinced me to go with him and Alex to Kelly’s party. I was invited but wasn’t planning to go. Molly was still being a jerk to me and I didn’t want to deal with her. I think I only got invited to the party because of Josh, but anyway…Josh talked me into going.

When we got there, Kelly asked Alex to see if he could fix the sound system because it wasn’t working right. Then she grabbed Josh and dragged him off somewhere. I was left standing there by myself. I didn’t want to talk to Molly so I went over to the food table and figured I’d pretend I was getting food while I waited for Josh to return. It felt like forever and I was really uncomfortable. I hate not knowing anyone at parties. I was just standing there when Patrick walked over and rescued me.

We started talking and went out to the back patio to sit down. We were talking about why Molly is mad at me, and then we started talking about his upcoming move to Florida. I was actually having fun when Josh walked out. He did not look happy to see me sitting there talking to Patrick. He gave me a look and then turned and walked back into the house.

I followed him inside and grabbed his arm to stop him. I asked him where he’d been and he said he was looking all over for me. I asked him why, then, did he walk away as soon as he’d found me. He told me that he didn’t want to interrupt. I assured him that there was nothing to interrupt. He seemed to accept that but the rest of the night was weird.

I was in the kitchen a little later trying to clean off a chocolate stain on my white shirt and Molly came in looking ticked off. She said, “I can’t believe you have two guys doing your bidding now!” I just looked at her. Really, I had no idea what she was talking about. My ignorance didn’t last long, though, because she proceeded to tell me that both Josh and Patrick had talked to her about being mean to me. Apparently she’s not talking to Josh now either. I don’t know exactly what happened but she told him off. She then told me that Patrick told her that he broke up with me because Josh asked him to!

At this point I was livid. I was mad that Josh and Patrick were telling her to be nice to me. I can take care of myself! I started telling her this and she seemed less annoyed with me and more annoyed with them. Then I started to get mad that Josh asked Patrick to break up with me! Who does he think he is? I can’t believe he thinks he can manipulate my life like that

Molly seemed to simmer down quite a bit and we made plans to go out tonight to talk things through. Things with Josh, however, are not so great. When we got home, Alex made a mad dash into the Anderson’s house while Josh and I stood outside yelling at each other. I was so mad at him for telling Patrick to break up with me. If I told Tanya or Laura – or any one of his fan club members – to stay away from him, he would be beyond livid.