Josh and I have been practicing our Rhumba. Sometimes it's great, sometimes it's frustrating as hell. Last night I was lying awake thinking about him - not in the way that I usually lie awake thinking about him, this was about how to make the best dancer out of him. I realized that I have to figure out his strengths and weaknesses.

His strengths are that he's got incredible musicality. He understands timing. He understands what I mean when I tell him to step on the down beat, or start on the second beat. He also has charm and stage presence - and that is huge.

His weakness is that he's good at almost everything he tries. Some may not consider that a weakness, but it is because I don't want him to think he's so good that he doesn't have to try harder. A person who thinks they have all the answers, fails to ask questions, and asking questions is key to learning. When I try to correct him, he gets annoyed because he's so used to getting things right. I have to figure out a way to show him how to do things properly without hurting his ego. I want him to be confident but not over confident!

I had no idea how hard this would be. There is so much to consider. Every dance is different, every dancer is different. The thing is that I want Josh to be able to do these dances - and not just the routines. In 20 years, I hope he'll be able to go out to the dance floor, hear a song, think "this is a Rhumba" and remember the steps.

Okay, enough about that. When I'm not thinking about how to make Josh the best dancer, I'm worrying about things with Molly. She hasn't been friendly in weeks. I think she should be over this by now - and I didn't do anything to her. I didn't even do anything to Patrick! He dumped me, and she's acting like I was a horrible witch to him! She told me yesterday that she didn't appreciate me "luring" Josh away from them at Dairy Queen the other night. I almost laughed, and then realized she was serious! I just don't know what to do. I don't know what I can do. I've apologized. I've told her that I want to continue to be friends, and nothing seems to help.

I just thought that Molly would understand that I can't help who my heart wants. She was there through all of it. She knows that I didn't set out to date Patrick and then find myself wanting someone else. It's not like I picked some new, random guy to like more than Patrick. It's Josh! It's the guy who has had a monopoly on my heart for the past 3 years! I don't know what to do to get through to her.

If it's not one thing, it's another, right? I spent the first half of the summer bickering with Josh, and now it's Molly who I can't seem to get along with. I can't even think about it anymore...

A less maddening topic...the skunk. He - or she - is back. Lauren and I drove into work together this morning and we smelt it right away. I went into the office and Josh was on the phone with animal control. The problem is that skunks come out at night, and we have no proof that the smell wasn't lingering from last night. They will only do something if we see the skunk during the day. We're all on skunk-alert now. If anyone sees it, we have to notify Henry or Josh immediately. I just hope that if the skunk is out and about, I will see it before it see me!