Tonight is the first performance of the competition. I am so nervous. I feel bad because I think I’m making Josh nervous. I’m trying to be upbeat and positive but I just don’t think our dance is going to *wow* the crowd. I saw Jennifer and JD practicing yesterday and they looked so good. They looked like they were having fun, and Josh and I just don’t look like that.

The other thing is that he knows how to swing. The problem is that he learned at a school event, so he’s been dancing the swing for years without ever learning proper form. I’ve been trying to help him clean up his footwork and drop his shoulders, but old habits are hard to break. As nerve-wracking as the Rhumba may be, at least we’ll be starting from scratch.

Okay, enough with the worry about the dance. I think I know why Alex wants to move out of the Anderson’s house. Lauren kind of let it slip that she thinks he’s really cute. Maybe he’s picked up on her interest and doesn’t want to get involved. It’s just a guess, but it would explain things.

I ran into a high school friend, Kim, last night. She asked me if I want to go out Friday night. I'm really looking forward to it. It will be good to catch up and I've been kind of lonely with Molly being mad at me.

Send me good vibes tonight - 7:00 p.m. EST!!!!