I've been a slacker blogger. Things have been so busy with dance rehearsals this week. The Mambo + the group Waltz has had us busy. And on top of everything else there is work.

This weekend was good and weird. Friday night I was leaving the swim club to head home and Josh called and asked me if I wanted to hang out once his set was over. So I went over to the Anderson's house late that night. Josh and I were playing scrabble and talking and then the storm knocked the lights out. The rest of the night we sat there playing in the dark - in the candlelight. He looked so unbelievably cute with the light flickering on his face. We had so much fun and such a good conversation.

On Saturday he told me that Angelo called him and wanted me to be at the restaurant that night. Angelo thinks that our partnership in the dance competition as brought customers in to see Josh sing. Angelo thinks people will like to see me there. Josh told me that Angelo has been driving him crazy about this so I agreed to go. It didn't take much convincing to get Lauren to tag along with me. It was a nice evening and Angelo gave us a free dinner.

After the show Josh asked me if I wanted to hang out again. I did. I really did, but I declined because Friday night was almost too much for me. Sitting there, in the dark, just the two of us...it was so nice being one-on-one with him, but it was also hard. I've created a situation where I can't act on my feelings. All I can do is sit there and pretend that this thing between us is friendship. I just couldn't do it two nights in a row. It would be like going on a diet and hanging out in a bakery every day.

Our dance rehearsals are going really well. It's just the pause that we're having trouble with, but it's getting better and I think this is our best dance yet.