I'm supposed to be out experiencing life...so why am I sitting home alone on a Friday night? Molly's out with the same guy from last weekend and Nat is at some play she had to see for her theater class.

I supposed to talk to Josh tomorrow and I'm not going to have anything interesting to tell him. I had a week of insomnia and a boring Friday night. I've got to do something to shake things up a bit.

I feel like I'm coming down after an amazing summer and I don't know what to do with myself. This past summer was so perfect in so many ways. I danced all summer and I danced with the guy that I love. What could be better? I just can't find anything that comes close.

I feel like my life is on hold right now. It's like I'm on "pause" and I don't get to "play" again until Josh returns. And I've promised myself that I wouldn't live that way. I just don't know what to do to get back into "play" mode.