I'm just relaxing at Molly's. It's just me, Josh, Molly, Natalie, Amanda and Jason left now. Everyone else left to head back to school today. I'm lucky that I have one more day off before school starts again. And it's my birthday tomorrow so I'm especially glad not to be starting classes. :)

Josh and Jason went out to pick up pizza. Amanda and Molly are working on a puzzle and Nat's outside on the phone with Arie. I figured it was a good time to blog.

It's been a fun weekend. Last night was my birthday dinner. Henry drove down to celebrate with us. It meant a lot to me especially since I know that Josh and I made him slightly crazy this summer.

On Saturday night Josh and I went out alone. He took me to a little seafood restaurant on the water. It reminded me of the kind of restaurants that I used to go to in Florida. A woman came up to us while we were waiting for our table and told us we were a cute couple.

That night we went for a walk on the beach. I was looking out at the ocean and Josh said "you're quiet." I told him that I was thinking about him being on the other side of the ocean. He asked me if I was ready to talk about him leaving. I told him I wasn't ready.

We went back to the house to hang out with our friends but no one was there. We went up to the roof deck, and I sat down in the same spot I had sat two weeks earlier. I was thinking the same thing, "is this the end?" Josh sat down next to me and told me that we need to talk about England. I told him my fears: that we wouldn't be able to pick things back up when he returns. He told me that where he is won't change how he feels. I have to give him credit, he was saying all the right things and really trying to assuage my fears, but I still feel uneasy about him leaving. When he says that we're going to be together in December, I believe he believes that now. But what if something happens along the way? What if his feelings change? And how am I going to get to December without going crazy?

Guys are back with pizza. Will post more tomorrow.