I am so nervous about our Mambo tonight. I don't know why. Josh knows the dance. He's good at the dance. He can actually dance on the 2nd beat! I think my expectations are high and I'm just afraid that we won't live up to them.

The other thing is that Josh and I have been getting along so well, and I'm having a hard time not acting on my feelings...especially when we spend so much time together. We're either at work or rehearsing, and rehearsing means constant physical contact. It's almost more than I can take.

Our song ("Hungry Eyes") is just so perfect too... "I've been meaning to tell you I've got this feeling that won't subside." I just keep thinking about that line and wishing that we could actually talk about things. I just don't want to mess things up. I mean, we're getting along so well. Work is good. Dance is good. What if something romantic happens and then things get royally screwed up? Everything would be ruined. It's why I came up with the pact in the first place. I guess, I just answered my own questions. I've got to see this pact through. Once the competition is over, I'll deal with the feelings. For now I just have to be strong and stay focused.