Damn that man! Damn him! I wish I had never laid eyes on him! And to think I was going to talk to him about us getting back together!

Last night when I got home from closing the swim club, I saw Josh's car parked out front so I thought maybe I should talk to him. I decided to change first so I was walking into the house when I heard Josh's voice out back. I thought I'd walk over and see him but as I got to the back of his house I saw him standing there kissing Tanya.

So that's the end of that. He's moved on, and I am moving on. I have Patrick, who is a great guy, and I've been blowing it with him because I had some romantic notion that Josh and I are soul mates.

Seriously, does that even exist? Maybe that kind of love is just what romance novels and chick flicks are made of. Maybe none of it was ever real.

I'm done thinking about him. I'm done wanting him. I am going out with Patrick tonight and I am going to thank my lucky stars that he came into my life. He's smart, funny, adorable and he hasn't broken my heart!