I went to Angelo's last night with Lindsay and Jennifer. I had the full intention of talking to Josh to try to gage if he'd be interested in giving us another try, but things just didn't work out.

He was on stage when we got there. We sat down and it was about 45 minutes before their first break. Alex came over to our table but Josh disappeared out back. I figured he had to do something and then he'd come over and say hello, but he never came out. I wondered if he hadn't seen us, but the place isn't that big and we were in the center, fairly close to the stage. Plus, Alex had seen us so I knew Josh had to have seen us.

They went back on stage for their next set, and another 40 minutes went by before they took another break. I got up from the table and pretended that I was going to use the restroom so that I could grab him before he disappeared but he beelined it straight for the men's room before I ever had a chance. I went into the women's room and gave myself a pep talk and then walked out. He was at the bar so I walked over to say hello. He said hello but was really distant. I stood there for a minute while he talked to the bartender. Then I told him to stop by our table.

I went back to the table and he took his time and coming over. When he did he mostly talked to Jen and Lindsay. I was really annoyed and decided to take off once they got back on stage. I went home, called Amanda and ranted for an hour about what a jerk he was. Then she told me that she thinks he was only acting that way because he was hurt that I'm seeing Patrick. That made sense so I decided I'd try again today.

I went over to the swim club even though I wasn't working. I decided I'd swim some laps and use that as my excuse for being there. Well, I got there and told Josh that I was going to use the upper level pool and he started giving me grief! He kept saying, "we're going to have to put a guard up there if you're going to use it."

I told him that I'm a lifeguard now and I can swim on my own but he kept arguing with me. Henry finally came out of his office to find out what the problem was. I was so aggravated at this point that I didn't want to talk to Josh about us getting back together. My feelings for him at that point were utter annoyance and frustration.

Henry told Josh to go up to the pool with me and sit in the lifeguard chair while I swam my laps. Josh was pissed off, I was annoyed and embarrassed, but also happy that Josh wasn't getting his way. He was acting like such a big baby. I swam laps for about a half hour and then I came home. I thanked him as I got out of the pool but didn't talk to him about us. I wasn't in the mood, and I'm pretty sure he was too mad at me to have a normal conversation.