I've come up with my theme for the 4th of July celebration: American Popular Culture of the last 100 years. I wanted to do something Americana but I also wanted to make it fun. I thought we could set up booths with toys and games from the past few decades. We'll have a hoola hoop contest for the 50's and we're going to get rubik's cube key chains to give out as a prize for the 80's.

Molly and I already produced a show based on the history of American Popular Music so we're going to recreate that with the people at the swim club. Plus, it will give the kids more opportunity to get involved. Instead of all the lifeguards and counselors singing, we're going to incorporate dance and quick monologues about the type of music we're representing. You know, one of the kids can get up and say, "The year was 1956 when the first Rock n Roll song hit #1 on the Billboard Charts. The song: Rock Around The Clock." And then the music can start and we can have a dance or the guys can sing. It will be fun, and educational.

My goal is to make this the best 4th of July Celebration the club has ever seen. I am all over this. Lauren and Jennifer are my assistants this summer so I've asked them to meet with me on Monday to get the ball rolling on this project. It's going to be so much fun!

Last night I went dancing with J.D. We had a really good time. I haven't had a chance to really dance like that since I hurt my ankle. And J.D. is an amazing dancer. Too bad he's gay. :(

Like I need another guy in my life! I already have guy trouble up to my eye balls, and I'm sure it won't be long until I'm in way over my head. I have the guy that I love, who is acting like a complete bonehead right now. And I have the one that I want to love, who is amazing, and who I know I'm not being fair to.

Today has been a Josh and Patrick free day so far, and I have to say that I'm pretty happy about it. I don't feel guilty, or angry with myself, or annoyed that I don't have more control over my feelings. Today is just a good day of not dealing with either one of them. Tonight I'm working at the dance studio which helps to keep me on a path free of both of them. It's good to have a day...a day to myself. Lord knows I have a lot to sort out.