Last night after swing class Mona asked me to go next door to Angelo's with her. All of the dance instructors like it because they have a dance floor and live music every night. Mona hadn't been there yet so she wanted to check it out. I really didn't want to go because I knew Josh was singing with the doo-wop group, and I wanted to continue with my day without guy troubles. But it's kind of hard to turn down your boss so I went.

We walked in and the moment we sat down my eyes locked with Josh's. I gave a little wave and he nodded from the stage. I tried to seem casual but in my head I kept thinking "What am I doing here? He's going to think I'm following him around! Does he want me here? Does he even care at this point?"

Mona was looking around and commenting how great it was. The atmosphere, the music, and opportunity for dancing were big pluses for Mona and she kept telling our waitress how great everything was. It was a little overboard.

The guys took a break and Josh actually walked over to say "hi" to us. He was friendly, but I can't help but feel that he was there more for Mona than for me. Mona was asking him about the place when Angelo himself came out. He had heard how much Mona liked the restaurant. At this point Josh walked off and I didn't even get to talk to him. I wanted to follow after him and have the conversation that we so desperately need to have, but it would have been impolite to get up and leave and I didn't want to be rude to Angelo.

I was looking around the place and was amazed at how many people were there and really loving the music. I had no idea that doo-wop had such a following. I was talking to Aunt Lu about it this morning, because I'm surprised how much I like the music too. She said that doo-wop has a big following in this part of the country, and that I like it because good music is good music whether it's old or new. Such and Aunt Lu thing to say. :)

Anyway, the last song of the evening is the one that I love, "This I Swear." I could feel my heart turn over in my chest as Josh started to sing it. "My love for you will last till time itself is through..." I love this song! I'm so afraid to download it because I'm sure I'll sit around listening to it and fantasizing that he'll sing it to me. Still, I have this urge to go downstairs and search through Aunt Lu's music collection for it.

Josh took off as soon as they were finished so I didn't get to talk to him. I got home, pulled up in front of the house and looked longingly at his window. His car was there but his room was dark so I knew we wouldn't be having any conversations. Am I ever going to get a chance to talk to him? Or should I just let it go and get on with my life?