Josh called last night and told me that he wanted to finish our rehearsal. Well, our rehearsal lasted until 3:00 a.m. I was exhausted this morning but the Samba is coming along better. We just kept going over one step until he finally got it. Still...I don't know. This could be the end for us. It's getting better but it's not like the other dances. The Samba might take us down. :(

I just really want to get to the semi-finals. After all that we've been through I don't want it to end yet. I want to get to the finish line. I want all of the time and sacrifice to be worth it. I've spent the past few weeks denying all that I feel for him so that we could win this thing. I can't let it be in vain. I just can't.

The up side is that our Quickstep is great. Every time Josh gets frustrated with the Samba, I make him go over the routine for the Quickstep. It boosts his confidence and he can start the Samba again feeling less frustrated.

I rehearsed the song I'm singing for the first time today. Jen and Lauren are singing backup and Lauren is playing the piano. I had no idea how hard "Niagara" is to sing! I'm getting cold feet - and not so much because it is hard to sing, but because it will tell Josh so much of what I feel right now. I want him to know, but I just feel so vulnerable. I might as well carry around a big sign that says, "I love Josh Anderson and it's completely unavoidable, and completely uncontrollable." Yet, I feel like he put himself out there for me when he sang "Put Your Head On My Shoulder," so it's only right that I do that for him. I just hope I don't wimp out!