My world is like crazy drama world. Yesterday was awful. I was outside talking to Molly on the deck of the snack bar when I heard commotion down by the pools. Josh was running over to the diving pool yelling at Duncan (the lifeguard guarding the diving pool) to not let a little boy dive because he didn’t know how to swim. Well, the kid dove in (I think it was a dare or something). Josh dove in after him from the side of the pool and clipped the side of the diving board with his head. Duncan dove in to get the little boy and realized Josh hadn’t come back up. It was horrible. He and Terry both went back in for Josh. Josh came out of the pool conscious but really out of it and his head was bleeding.

Lauren was freaking out. I was freaking out. Henry and Jill were trying to calm us down, get help and tend to Josh. An ambulance came and took him and Lauren to the emergency room. I was going to follow but I was too frazzled to drive so Jennifer took me over.

I knew he was going to be okay but I was really worried, and very upset. I know without a doubt that I love him now, but I can’t go back to being one of a million girls. Ugghhh…

The doctors said he would be okay and that he had a mild concussion and not to let him go to sleep. Mrs. Anderson took us home, dropping Lauren and I off at the swim club to get my car. I guess she thought I needed company. We got in the car and I just started crying. Lauren seemed confused, and was asking me why I broke up with him if I like him so much. I told her about the other girls and she told me that to her knowledge there are no other girls. That kind of made me feel better and worse.

Once I calmed down I managed to get us safely home. Molly, Terry, Jen, Lauren and I hung out with Josh last night trying to keep him awake. It was weird for me. The whole night was awkward. It was like we both wanted to say something to the other but couldn’t.

We finally left this morning at 6:00. I slept until 1:00. Now I have to get ready for the stupid auction tonight. I totally don’t want to do it anymore, but I have to. Maybe I’m just grumpy from a horrible day, stressful night, and lack of sleep.