This night has been hell. My mom arrived a little while ago and it’s been a nightmare since she got here. She thinks that things are moving too fast between Josh and I. Apparently, Mrs. Anderson told her about walking in on us kissing last week and now my mom thinks that all we do is sit around making out. And that’s totally not the case!

My mom was like, “I like Josh, I really do. I’m just concerned that my sixteen year old daughter-” And then I cut her off and reminded her I’m almost seventeen. She reminded me that he’s nineteen and in college, and living in New York City. It’s like she’s holding it against him that he goes to school in a big city. She also was upset with Aunt Lu for letting me spend the weekend up there. It was so stupid.

I kept getting more and more upset. I told her that I love him and I don’t care what she thinks. She threatened to make me go back to Florida, and I got more upset. I started going on and on about how he was moving back to New York and how that was going to be difficult enough. And there is no way I’m going to move even further away from him!

I ran up to my room. Aunt Lu came up a little later and told me that my mom wouldn’t really make me move back to Florida, but that throwing temper tantrums probably wouldn’t help my case any.

Aunt Lu said she was worried about me because she was afraid my heart would get broken when Josh returns to school. I didn’t want to tell her that I’ve been a little worried about that too. I know that this is not just infatuation. I really am in love with him. He’s it. He’s the one. I look at him and I see my future. I guess I’m just scared that he doesn’t feel as strongly.

I’m just so frustrated right now…with my mom, with the fact that I might be in love alone, with the desire to sneak out so that I can see Josh. I just wish that these things would work themselves out.