This weekend was crazy. I don’t even know where to start…

I’ll start with Alex. He’s returned from his summer in Europe. There’s something different about him. Josh and I were talking about it last night and we wonder if there was a girl in Europe. There was something keeping him there, and making him act distant from Molly. They’re reunion was awkward and I think they will be broken up by the end of the week.

In other news, my mom decided she wants a trial separation from my dad. She wants to find an apartment in Sarasota and wants me to move back down there with her. I am all for the trial separation but there is no way I’m going back to Florida and I told her that. I am finally seeing just how selfish my mother is. First she ships me off to live with Aunt Lu because she won’t leave my drunken father. And now that I’m happy, and settled, and more secure and safe than I’ve ever been in my life, she wants to uproot me again! The woman has a lot of nerve! I told her to count me out. She wasn’t happy but I don’t think she’s going to fight me on it. I heard her and Aunt Lu having an argument and it sounded like Aunt Lu won.

Things with Josh are stressful too. I just can’t keep going on like things are great. I can’t pretend that our feelings are equal. I know that I’m in this deeper than he is. I love him, but I just don’t think he loves me back. And with him going off to school, I’m afraid that some beautiful New York college girl will come along and make him forget about me. I wish I knew what to do.