Well, Josh and I are over. Finished.

It's just so frustrating. I thought that once people knew we were dating that his fan club (all of the girls that are constantly around him) would back off. But they don't. It's like he's more attractive to them because he's taken. I actually saw some girl give him her phone number on Monday. I was standing 20 feet away. I know we don't have any committment to each other, I know he's free to do as he pleases, but I just can't take watching him with other girls. I get so jealous...and it brings out all of the bad in me. So last night I broke things off.

Needless to say, it wasn't a fun night and today hasn't been a fun day. I called out sick to work so I wouldn't have to see him. I know it's just prelonging the inevitable, but I needed a day to regroup.

Molly tried to console me by reminding me that the bachelorette auction is on Friday and maybe a cute guy will bid on me. I think she's hoping that will happen for her. She's still pretty upset that things with Alex aren't going so well. We're going out tonight to try to forget those stupid boys.