I got into Philadelphia yesterday around 10:30 in the morning. It was raining when I got here, but even that couldn't make me want to go back to Florida. I wanted to get home before Josh left, but by the time I got my luggage and met Uncle Bill I knew we'd never get home before he left.

I did talk to him again Saturday night. He called and asked how things were going in Florida. I told him that it was fun to see my friends. I had wanted to stay at the beach longer but the red tide was bothering Natalie so we ended up hanging out by her pool.

He said that he was bummed that I wasn't home, but I reminded him that I'd see him Thursday night when he played piano at my show. After that he had to go because he was meeting Molly, Alex and Kelly at Perkins.

So now I'm back and the day has been pretty uneventful. I just finished choir practice and I'm hanging around until concert choir practice tonight. I think Molly, Alex, Jennifer, Rhonda (one of our choir friends) and I are going to grab a bite to eat in a little while.

I just can't wait until Thursday. I can't wait to see Josh! I've been counting down the minutes until I see those amazing blue eyes again...

Molly was really putting the pressure on me today to tell him how I feel. But I still don't feel that's an option. He lives in New York. He's in college. He's the most amazing person on the planet. He's not going to suddenly fall in love with me, and I'm not going to humiliate myself. And Molly was the person who promoted "The Rules." And the rules state that the guy is the one who has to make the first move, and if he doesn't, it's because he's simply not interested.

Of course "The Rules" would also probably say that I should give up and forget about him, and stop wasting my time. We all know I've been a miserable failure at giving him up. Whenever I try, he pops back into my life again. Last week I was asking for Cupid to drop Mr. Right on my doorstep, instead Josh shows up on my doorstep. I just can't get him out of my head. I think Cupid is going to have to send a really amazing guy to knock Josh out of my system...