Last night I was sitting in my room trying to give myself a pep talk about calling Josh. I was about to pick up the phone to call him when it rang. Sure enough, it was him on the other end.

We actually had a really great conversation. I got over being so nervous about talking to him and he didn't sound as strained as he did on Saturday night. We talked about his classes and his piano gig, and I told him about everything going on here in PA. Before I knew it an hour had gone by.

As we were wrapping up the conversation he told me that he had really wanted to talk to me longer on Saturday night. Then the words, "I miss you," just slipped right out of my mouth. I thought I was going to die but he said, "I miss you too. I miss everyone but I really miss you."

I just sat there for a moment trying to figure out if he had really said that. And then I wanted to cry because I want him to come home so badly. He was like, "Are you still there?" He asked me if I was okay since I got so quiet. I told him I was distracted because I thought Aunt Lu was calling me.

Call waiting disrupted us then so we ended the conversation. My mom was on the other line. She was stressed because her kids are having their dance recital on Friday night and the teacher who is her right-hand "man" broke her hip! So I'm going to fly down to Florida on Thursday for the weekend to help her out.

So this morning Jennifer, Molly and I got together for breakfast before school. Seems that Nancy has been trying to make me completely unavailable to Josh. Jennifer confirmed that Josh thought I was dating Tom - thanks to Nancy.

It actually seems like Jen tried to help me out with Josh...which kind of surprises me, but I guess she's moved on. She's totally crazy about Terry so maybe she wants me to be with Josh now. Who knows...I'm just glad that she set the record straight. I think she's the reason he called last night.

Maybe I'll get a better read on the situation with Josh when he comes home next weekend for the show.