Yesterday was perfect. It was warm. It was sunny. But today? Rainy, then cold, then snowy! I just can't take this. I miss Florida and the thing that I love most (besides Aunt Lu) is in New York. I have to wonder why I don't call my mom and beg her to let me go back. I guess it's because of Aunt Lu, Molly, Alex...and the fact that I can't live under the same roof as my father.

Today was a rough day. I was missing Josh like crazy and I ended up crying at lunch. It's just not fair. Why did the guy I want have to leave? Out of everyone, the one person that I need most is the on that's gone. I'm tired of Molly telling me to get on with my life, that I'll be okay or I'll find someone new, because I don't want someone new. I want Josh.

Then Molly tells me to call him. I'm not going to call him. What am I going to say? "Oh, boo hoo, woah is me. Josh, you're gone and my heart is broken?" NO WAY?

Now Molly's dragging me to Princeton Saturday night to celebrate Kelly's birthday. I like Kelly. I do, but I don't want to spend Saturday night with Josh's friends. All the while Jennifer will be in New York with Josh. It's so not fair! :(